Day 13: Intentions
Decide every day.
Let me put that another way. We GET to decide every day.
That’s what I noticed today.
That even though I spend a bit of time each day working on my mind and thoughts, I still can slide off course. Easily in fact.
I used to think I was indecisive. I had a hard time knowing what I wanted. I would consider things for quite some time before I would commit.
Especially if someone else was involved.
In the instances when it was just me, for example when I had to travel solo for work, or was on a trip to visit my sister on the East Coast, it felt easier. I would do what I wanted to do and had complete clarity around it.
If I didn’t know what I wanted to do, I’d just start somewhere and figure it out.
This past year I’ve done so much work around making strong decisions for myself.
Practicing speaking up.
Practicing knowing what I want.
Practicing following my compass.
Practicing saying yes and figuring out the how after.
Until I didn’t. Until I just stopped.
It’s been a slow quiet slide back into familiar territory, but I realized today that I’d set some intentions that I hadn’t followed through on.
I’d committed to starting a fitness program.
I’d committed to investing in facebook ads.
I’d committed to drinking less chai. (Seriously though, it’s delicious and PACKED with sugar)
I’d committed to a glass of wine every now and then, instead of each night.
I’d committed to 30 blogs in 30 days and made it to day 19 before I stopped.
I decided to be gentle and curious with myself.
Why hadn’t I followed through on these things when I’d already decided to?
I saw new circumstances.
A few minor injuries that have left me feeling frustrated.
Some health scares with hubby that have left me feeling vulnerable.
The logistics of listing a home.
A poisonous thought that I’d let creep in “I can do __________ in spite of __________”
I wanted to blame the circumstances. Because it makes sense. It seemed reasonable.
Until it didn’t.
Here’s the thing. I felt out of integrity with myself. That’s not a good feeling.
I wasn’t practicing what I was preaching. I wasn’t practicing what I believe in wholeheartedly. What I know works for me.
Deciding ahead of time and following through.
I spent some time looking at where I was and where I wanted to be.
I’ve decided to course correct. I’m using it as a lesson. Something to be aware of.
No beating myself up. No shame. No “of course this happened it’s what you do”.
None of that.
Just love and gratefulness that I noticed and am back on track.
Where have your intentions slipped? Where do you feel you’ve gone sideways and lost your way?
Guess what? We get to decide every day.
It’s not one and done. Each and every day we get to decide what we want and go get it.
We get to redecide. We HAVE to redecide.
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