Day 12: Wanting
Life's pretty good, I really don't have much to complain about.
My husband and I were in Starbucks one morning not too long ago, and while waiting in line we started chatting with the people around us. We were all talking about how the design of the location had recently changed and it's not as "user friendly" as it used to be.
The layout is not as nice as it used to be.
The chairs are not as comfy.
The line wiggles through the middle of the seating area.
It just feels less welcoming.
Then we realized it was 11:05am, and they throw out the Blonde roast at 11am!
Oh no! My hubby and another woman next to us both panicked. Now what?! They were both there for the Blonde.
I glanced down to notice that I had chipped a nail (they had been done like 3 days before) and a button had fallen off my coat.
In that moment I laughed out loud, shaking my head and said "first world problems"...as much for me as for anyone. Truly, I have nothing to complain about. Really.
I remember exactly 12 years ago, on 2/27/07 my mom passed away. It was a difficult time for me. She and I had some sweet conversations and during one of them she expressed just how much she wanted just even one more day to spend with us. One more day to spend time with her grandchildren. It was the hardest part of knowing that she was dying.
From that conversation, I decided whenever I was feeling sorry for myself or wanting to complain, I'd remind myself that "somebody somewhere was taking their last breath." It was a reminder to appreciate what I had, and to remind me that there was always someone going through something much worse.
I was given the gift of ongoing gratitude.
Looking back over the past 12 years, there were definitely times that little reminder came in handy. Times when it really didn't serve me to stay down in the doldrums.
and this is a big but. I also believe that life doesn't have to be awful for you to want more out of it.
I believe that we are each fearfully and wonderfully made, and sent here with a purpose. If we have things in life that are preventing us from becoming fully who we are meant to be, we owe it to ourselves to explore those things and move those obstacles out of the way.
We are given this one life and we get one chance at living it.
If fear, confusion, procrastination or something that you're not even clear about is holding you back, and preventing you from becoming who you want to be, or from accomplishing what you want to accomplish, it doesn't have to be that way.
I remember when I found my way to my first coach, my primary thought was "I don't know if I even know what a typical day feels like for most people. I want to talk to someone about that."
I literally told my first coach "I don't even know why I'm here, I just want more."
It felt important. I just wanted some clarity.
I reached out to someone. Booked a free consultation and I've been doing the work on myself ever since.
What I love about that is that as I continue to grow, I'm able to help more and more people.
By showing up for myself first, I'm able to show up for others.
There is nothing that I would ask of a client that I wouldn't ask of myself.
Wanting, what is it that you want just because you want it?
What are you missing out on by letting that slide by?